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Ryoku W
Current Residence: Mexico, Mexico
Favourite genre of music: Metal, Punk, Neo, a little bit of this, a little bit of that
Favourite photographer: hmmm, hard one, let it be Ansel Adams
Favourite style of art: Originality... > Traditional + 3D
Operating System: MAC OSX
MP3 player of choice: depends on what Im looking for, tho I tend to do itunes
Shell of choice: o.0 wtf?
Wallpaper of choice: Random Coneptual art pics I like. Most of them Furries. Along with my own work.
Skin of choice: o.0 wtf?
Favourite cartoon character: Renamon!
Personal Quote: Trust is earned, do you diserve it?
  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: Silence
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Last week, as I drove back home, I received some news I wish I had never heard...
My little sister, my best friend for over 5 years, passed away in an accident because of a gas leak in her new apartment. Two days before her 20th birthday.

No, I'm not okay. Over the last week I've cried constantly, I'm confused and I still can't believe it.
I have no words... Only cold, shattered thoughts that aimlessly roam through frozen images and sensations; slowly drowning me into an infinite pond of tears... warm tears...

I still uselessly stare at my cellphone, hoping she'll call and I'll listen her sweet voice again "Mew mew oniisan! It was all a joke you silly ass, let's go get drunk for my bday!"...

We were always together, no matter what. We were for each other that special someone who you can turn to whenever knowing he or she will always be there for you, for the good and the bad. Even now, with that last gift she offered me, something only she could have been able to...

Its now that I hold tightly to that bone shaped plushie she gave me two years ago, with tears in my eyes that I can't stop thinking about her. Knowing I won't be able to hold her again, stare into her green eyes or make her laugh. That she always lived to the limit, no regrets. Always with a big smile and a mewl, living in 20 years much more than many people do during their entire lives.

Kendrya, you changed my life to the last moment of yours. You'll always be with me, like a paw print on my heart.
I ask for forgiveness for the things I did and I did not. For all I didn't say and held back from you, even when we both knew it right. And thank you, for all the laughs and tears we went through.
Now I type slowly in the language we chose to express our best. But there's no songs this time... I write to you with my heart in my paw, no more mirrors, no more smoke... just sober words and feelings, the way it could have been and never was...
I love you, I always did and I always will. As much as that feeling grew in both of us to keep us together over the years and against all adversity.
Thank you, for all we went through; it is deeply carved in my soul. You changed me, truly and deeply, with every experience we shared, included and not limited to our first collars that little we knew would influence so widely in our lives as we grew.
There is no way I can possibly write down all I feel and think as most of it is encrypted in images and sensations only we could understand through that bond that always kept us together.
Farewell my beloved little sister, for that I'll keep feeling you in life itself; knowing you're with Mother now and just a step ahead from us. Kilyanmwy'llalwbinmh... <3
This is a time for change. What I've learned and experienced thanks to you will not go on blindly. Not anymore.

Lastly, I'd like to thank my boyfriend and girlfriend, who have been standing by my side in this painful times; no matter the time nor the length. As well as everyone else who has been here with me, her family, and everyone else who was truly close to my sis.

Everyone, please. Take the most out of your life, taking no time to waste on useless lies, mirrors or smoke. Memories are the fuel for dreams but shall never be the engine. A mewl and a smile, step forward and never doubt; looking back only to keep on going.

-=Old Oak Tree, Forever Knight of The Queen & Slave of Darkness=-
-Ryoku Weil-

PS. Mew mew Kedy...

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Axel-Von-Wallenrod Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2015
feliz cumple otra vez XD
Axel-Von-Wallenrod Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014
feliz cumpleaños! XD
paladin095 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013  Professional Digital Artist
muchas felicidades :D
Axel-Von-Wallenrod Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2013
felicidades! X3
ikillyou121 Featured By Owner Aug 3, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thanks for watching :iconpinkiepiesmileplz:
Axel-Von-Wallenrod Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2012
feliz cumpleaños
Halje0406 Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2012
rawrzz jajajaj holaaa cambie de deviant :3
paladin095 Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2011  Professional Digital Artist
muchas felicidades =)
Tornaku Featured By Owner Sep 11, 2011  Professional Digital Artist
¿Podrías regalarme un par de ME GUSTA (likes)?
No te toma ni medio minuto, ni 5 clics:
1.- Dale me gusta a esta página [link]
2.- Luego a ésta foto: [link]

Could you give me a couple of Like (likes)?
Do not take half a minute, or 5 clicks:
1 .- Give me love to this page [link]
2 .- Then in this picture: [link]
PlastikStars Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2011
Thanks for the watch!
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